This is for Nick, the only man I'll ever love in this life. I need you back my clown.
I'm sorry I was a selfish bitch, I'm sorry I took anger out on you that was directed to myself, I'm sorry I ever hurt you.
I know sorry won't change or fix anything between us, but I feel I need to say it. Hopefully you can forgive me and the things I did to hurt you so badly. I never meant to hurt you, I wanted to hurt myself because I didn't think I was good enough at anything. My anxiety and depression got the better of me, and I couldn't control it so well.
I need you, I miss you, I love you, and want you back in my life for good. I promise I'll be better if you give me that chance to prove it.
