Sexy Cherry Mama's blog: "My Thoughts...."

written 6/30/06 I sit here, in my own silence and peace I hear the song and voices around me I feel the emptiness that is my soul and heart I hear the echo of me that is unfamiliar I can taste the sadness and tears How can I fill the space, become complete I know its not far in the distance, I can see I must dig a little deeper into that dark part and find the power to feel the sun on my skin and bring the light I need so I can be and fill the hole that is me

On 9/12/06 Let go, let go let go… Its what my mind screams And I whisper to myself.. Yet my heart won't let me. I lay here on my pillow Soaked with salty tears As I see the empty space Where you used to be.. Let go, let go, let go that's what I should do But I just cant yet I feel cheated and used. My mind swirls around With your smile and laugh Yet I feel the hurt And all the pain you left. Let go, let go, let go I've cried till I ached, I've sobbed till I hurt Please make it stop! It should be easy for me The disrespect, the pain The disregard, the distance Why don't I get it? Let go, let go, let go You tell me one thing Yet show me something else All were lies to my face. Yet I want you still And I love you more You've touch my being And shook me to my core Let go, let go, let go I just need to wake up I need to shut you out Out of my mind and soul

Its by Little Big Town...its a beautiful song... I don't know who I am Starin' at a million broken pieces here I don't know where I stand While I'm still, the world goes round so free, so cavalier Aimlessly I wander, like a drifter on a narrow winding road I've got plenty of direction but I don't know where to go I'm so lost without you I'm so lost without you Baby, I'm so lost without you That I can't find myself I'm so lost without you Baby, I'm so lost without you I'm so lost without you That I can't find myself Not it don't seem right This canyon of lonely lying in my bed Lord, how I've cried a waterfall of tear Til my eyes turn red And ever since you left me It's been like a bullet through my heart And I know I should move on But I don't know where to start I'm so lost without you I'm so lost without you Baby, I'm so lost without you That I can't find myself I'm so lost without you Baby, I'm so lost without you I'm so lost without you That I can't find myself And ever since you left me It's been like a bullet through my heart And I know I should move on But I don't know where to start I'm so lost without you I'm so lost without you Baby, I'm so lost without you That I can't find myself I'm so lost without you I'm so lost Baby, I'm so lost without you That I can't find myself

Evanescence Call Me When You're A Sober Lyrics don't cry to me. if you loved me, you would be here with me. you want me, come find me. make up your mind. should i let you fall? lose it all? so maybe you can remember yourself. can't keep believing, we're only deceiving ourselves . and i'm sick of the lie, and you're too late. don't cry to me. if you loved me, you would be here with me. you want me, come find me. make up your mind. couldn't take the blame. sick with shame. must be exhausting to lose your own game. selfishly hated, no wonder you're jaded. you can't play the victim this time, and you're too late. don't cry to me. if you loved me, you would be here with me. you want me, come find me. make up your mind. you never call me when you're sober. you only want it cause it's over, it's over. how could i have burned paradise? how could i - you were never mine. so don't cry to me. if you loved me, you would be here with me. don't lie to me, just get your things. i've made up your mind.