Not really ranting today just wanted to say that it was really cool Friday I got to spend 4hours with my son and my parents they havent gotten to see him in about 2 months thanks to "her" I talked to my father the other day on the phone and he had told me "that he did not want to get attached to "it" because he thought she was never going to let them see there grandchild and they didnt want to have their hearts broken" this pissed me off. I told him that he had just called my son an it 3 times during the course of our conversation and that his name was Aidan and regardless of whether or not he got to see him or not that he would always be hisgrandfather and he needed to realize that. he apologized, it still hurt to hear him say that god I hate my ex so much sometimes yet love her to I hate this state also I miss Florida I miss my friends down there. Grrrrrrrr why cant I find that special someone that is not pyscho, married, handfasted, spoken for, bi polar, clinically depressed, suicidal or just an all around NUT JOB? What did I do in my life that was so wrong? I just want someone who will love me and my son, be able to understand that i am going to have to deal with the pyscho ex for the rest of my life, who will love me for me and not want me to become someone i am not just to fit there shallow exsistance, Someone that I can eventually marry and spend the rest of my life with raise a family in a nice house in a quite neighborhood hell better yet the country who doesnt mind getting a littl,e dirty from time to time. WHERE ARE YOU AT DREAMGIRL lol. Ok so I lied lol this turned into a rant I apologize. Ahhhh much better well until next time. Alone in my shadow I sit.
