If you read my last blog then you will understand this and if you didn't well then go back and read it so you can understand this. If you are just too damn lazy to read it then let me try to make this one easy enough so that you won't have to go back to the previous one. In it I talked about new beginnings and what may lie on the other side of a newly opened door. The only way you can find out is by stepping through and finding out..blah blah blah....just go read it.
I stepped through that open door and found paradise. I am truly in heaven now and I have never been happier in my life. Even though I am not a go-billionaire I have everything I could ever want in my life right now. I found out that once you experience true happiness in a relationship nothing can best it. I know it took me a while to get things together within myself and find out what it was I wanted in life and now that I know, everything is falling into place. I can't believe I missed out on this all these years. The only other time I remember feeling this was when my kids were being born. I am just happy to have my family together and well.
Advice to all you guys who say you love your woman and you want to marry her and spend your life with her: Make damn sure you have everything you want to do (that does not include her) out of your system. This includes everything from going on trips with your buddies to Mexico or Corpus Christi or smoking weed all day and having threesomes with strangers or getting a bike and riding it like a damn fool or even something as simple as going to strip clubs or even watching straight porn and jerking off with your buddy in the same room (hey it's been done by some). Whatever your drug is or your addiction just make sure you get it out before you make a commitment to break her heart. Once you do that it may take you forever to get her back or you just may not be as lucky as I have been. I am happy and there is nothing that I or anyone else can do to make me screw it up again.
