DJ BrimstonexDark Asylum's blog: "My poetry, please do not copy and use without permission!"

This is for you Mom . . . I love you. To hear your voice To see your smile Thats all I truly want in life. To hear you say I love you To feel your warm embrace after a rough day Thats all I truly need. To feel your hand on my back when I'm sick To know your presence is there when I'm feeling alone Thats all I ever needed. But now you're gone And I'm all alone I don't want to grow up with out you. To know my kid won't know one of their grandmothers To know that I won't ever feel complete again To feel the pain in my heart from losing my best friend. I guess all I wanted was to have one more hug One more kiss One more song to dance to. . . One more "I love you"

I remember the smiles you gave me I remember how I felt my heart again I remember believing the love I remember the sin I remember all the nights i cried I remember the blood that fell I remember the lies that spread I remember secrets that I'll never tell I remember the pain i caused And the pain i received But one thing is still certain It is still you that I need....

This is something I rarely do To admit i was wrong But what I am about to say is true I am still in love And the object is your face I just wish i could fix it Go back to that place Where we were together We were free We were the perfect couple There ever would be But I know it's over That time is now done Seems now everytime you see me You run Or perhaps i do Because i am determined If it takes a life time i will make this up to you If it means me out of the picture Out of your life Then it will be done I'm no stranger to a knife

You say you want to die There's no reason to live I didnt know you were so pathetic Life isnt something you just give Like some kind of old hand me down Dirty and covered in dust Face facts kid Living is a must Yes times are hard I've had my fair share too Suffering will happen But how you over come it is what makes you, you I know you very well Better than you'd like to admit It's not like you to hide Fall so easily in a pit If you want to be a hypocrite If you want to be a lie Then go ahead do it Let it be by your hand that you die No one is perfect No one ever was Do you think your the only one that hurts? News flash everyone does You may not trust me This i understand But I can help you through this If you just give me your hand

As I look into your soft brown eyes My heart just melts every time To smell your perfume when you're near Just about drives me to tears. To know what I once had will never return How I wish I could say these words. I want to be able to hold you again And tell you I love you and not as just a friend. You have no idea what you mean to me But that relationship is gone, It's history. What I wonder is why you're with him, When I could love you ten times more than he could. He makes fun of you and your weight, When it's me that will take you and not even think about it. I think you're a beautiful creature, He thinks you can't find anyone else because no one will love you like him. I just wish you could see the light, And make an end to a constant fight. Come be with me and you will see, All the love you could ever want that comes from within me.

Gee. Look at that rainbow. See it float across the sky? Look at me, I'm a happy person! Happy! Happy! Happy! Watch me skip through the field with that pink bunny! Weee! Yay! Here we go little bunny! Hop! Hop! Hop! I see a squirrel! YaY! C'mon little squirrel, lets scramble up that tree thurr yonder! Climb! Climb! Climb...oops, there you go little squirrel, don't wantcha to fall! Climb! Climb...Oomph! Hey little birdie! Lets fly! Flap! Flap! Flap! Wait, I just remembered I can't fly! Fall! Fall! Fall! SPLAT! SPLAT! SPLAT!

Silent Screaming.... Pleading in your eyes... Begging on your knees..... Your hands reach out, yet there is nothing to grasp onto. You cry your river of tears. You hide in your shadow of doubt. You pinch yourself to see if your alive. Yet you realize that you can feel no pain. Your world spins, as you grab a knife and cut Slice Slit anything you can. You feel pure bliss as the warm, red sticky liquid runs everywhere. You fall back as your world turns black. Silent screaming... Pleading eyes.... Begging on your knees.....

Pain Suffering Thoughts of death still lingering around. Once pale skin creeps forth colour and radiance. Dull, dark hair begins to shine again. Realizing that help is only one call, or one friend away. Realizing that people DO love you for the way you are. Realizing that people DO want you to LIVE. Realizing that YOU want to live. Realizing that it's okay to cry, and let your anger out safely. Realizing it's okay to surrender and say, "I need help". Pain Suffering Thoughts of death still lingering around.... SLOWLY HEALING

Why am I feeling this way? This feeling of dread, of worthlessness and defeat. Why do you push me until I can't be pushed anymore? Why do you continually beat me up to make yourself feel better? Why do you like to see me cry? Why can't you treat me like a human? Why do you like to be the abuser? Why can't you treat me like the equal I am? Why can't you treat me with the respect you give everyone else? WHY?!?!

Sitting here alone, Wanting to cry, Here I am, waiting for a sign. A sign that you love me, or even care at all, as I sit here, staring a hole through the wall. In a sense i know that you love me, and forever it'll be true, I'm just trying to figure out why the hell I'm so blue. So if you can think of an answer, please tell me why, cause i hate to sit and think that I'm living one big lie.