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well my friends, i have been absent for a lil over a month or so now... more absent then ive been in a while atleast... Back in january i had gone in for my lady maintenance checkup, and a few weeks after that i was called by the clinic to be informed that i had abnromal cells built up on my cervix. and they schedualed a day for me to go to another clinic that specialized in procedure types that they wanted me to do.
i go there and indure a very uncomfertable and more then a lil painful procedure... only for them to tell me they cant finish the process because i wasnt on my preventative antibiotics.... so the whole thing was reschedualed for valentines day.
vday rolls around and i take my medication and go back to the clinic to finish the hoopla. once there they biopsy my cervix in a few places and at the end of all the whatnot. they tell me that it would be about two weeks befor i get any results back... last week they finally called me, informing me that first and foremost i had nothing to worry about, yet of the two places they biospied the "front" and the "back", they were concerned for the amount of abnormal cells built up upon the "front" while they didnt seem to have a second thought of the "back".... So the sum of the beginning of my year has been coming to terms with my potential of having cancer...
Both my grandmother and my mother had cervical cancer, so based of family history it seems quite likely that this isnt going to be the end of my expereince....
je ne sais pas... i do know that throughout this entire experenience so far... im learning a depth to myself i hadnt previsouly suspeceted. i Crave things from this life i was afraid to ever even acknowledge the possibility of potential for. it has made the moments i share with those around me that much more sweeter
