This year has proved to be the worst one of my life!!!! Only good thats happened to me all year was marrying the man of my every dream...As some of ya know my kids went into foster care a couple years ago...I had done everything possible to do what the courts wanted me to do...Get a job get housing yadda yadda yadda...So I finally get a job and an apartment things were good till I lost my job and then my apartment shortly after that...It has been shown and proven that Michigan has the worst unemployement rate ever...Well Feburary 1st of this year was 6years that my dad passed away (still seems like yesterday) and I recieve in the mail that the courts had decided to terminate my parental rights...WOW talk about a double whammy there...Dad's death anniversary and now the notice that they are terminating my rights...So me and my hubby decide to appeal the courts decision...I get the call from my lawyer today and they are dead set on not giving me my babies back!!! Wtf I did everything they asked me to...Did they even question my now husband about things? Hell no they didnt...Iam finally stable in my life good job great marriage housing the whole 9yards and they still wont take any of that into consideration...My husband and myself want in the worse way another child together something that is ours...Yea call me crazy but this is the man I love more then ever other then my babies...But cause of all this bullshit those dreams are now shattered...Maybe its for the better maybe its not...GOD why me? Am I that bad of a person to deserve any of this? Long story short my appeal didnt even make it through...Now should I take the extra step and go to the supreme court or just say screw it and live with the fact Iam a crappy mom and dont deserve my kids back? Ive lost every battle I have tried to win...Anytime I felt I was taking steps forward I would get kicked back even further...
