Let me become your every fanasty's blog: "My Poetry"

This next poem was wrote for my son when he and his ex gf who was his 1st true love broke his heart in two.... Breaking up with the person you love is a hard thing to do. Wether its just a few weeks or maybe years or maybe even just a few months. The tears have a tendency to fall like a river which flows freely. You feel like you have cried your last tear and you know deep inside that ya havent. The memories that you and I have shared will never be earsed but preserved between us forever. Memories that no one person could replace. We will not love one another like we use to, but as each day that passes I pray that we get back together As the days wear on I pray that we can look past our differences but as those days go by I lose that hope that we will be able to. Love is like an ice cube, it melts because it's to hot to handle or as a broken heart would do. A broken heart that just melts away, waiting to be repaired A broken heart that cries out to be mended but we both know in our heart that isn't going to happen. Though just remember no matter why we have broke up, your always going to be in my heart and soul. You'r always goin to be a part of me forever and always

Depression is hard on ones soul. Its emotionally draining on ones soul. The demons within me cry out for help and to be free. An impossible freedom that cries out to be released Freedom thats held within unable to escape Depression takes total control of me and my mind Bringing me down so easily. Some days are better then others, some days are worse then others Those demons within me some some days claw and dig into my mind telling me one thing and then doing another. These demons screaming within my mind, begging to be set free. These demons tell me over and over that Iam not a good person Iam. Though they say in time these demons can be released, hopefully sooner then later before it becomes to late for me and others around me These demons scream out in agony, begging to be released from the hell within my body and soul When the demons scream out for help seems that there is no one there Seems they are asking for help and no one is there to give them the help they are longing for

As i sit here with tears in my swollen eyes I ask myself why? Why cause I have lost the one thing in life that means the most to me other then my kids And that is YOU...I lost you Again I have asked myself why over and over and I cant realize why. Its because ya have opted to believe lies rather then believe the woman ya loved at this time Every time I hang the phone up I just want to say to you again "I love you" and I just cant do it There is no love between us no more Every time I breathe I feel as though it is going to be my last breath Everytime I close my eyes I see you I see the smile on your face that made me happy time and time again And now we are only friends I guess that its better to be friends then nothing at all You was truely special to me and words can not describe how hard this is for me When the skies fill with rain and comes down hard it feels like the tears I cry I pray that one day you will see what you have lost and come back to the woman that loved you and to come back to me soon

What does life mean to you? At this time mine sucks and has no meaning at all to it. Like having that dark an lonely feeling Just like a lifeless body A life that has no meaning, feels like a heart that has stopped beating Life as i see it now is like a road that has come to an abrupt end. Or even a fire that burns ever so strong and vibrant and in a moments notice gets put out by an abundance of water Life is like a flower that has had its petals wilted away Only to thrive and crave a drink of water Its even like dirty dishwater that sits just waiting to be drained from the sink Life is like not getting ya cherry on top of your hot fudge sundae. Life is like a clock that has stopped running cause the batteries have died. My life is full of anger and despair. Only to have the feeling of hate and no good Also as of now it is meaningless and no good Life as of now feels more like death then it does life it self

Ive been broke in 2 again this is a poem that is for the man that hurt me the way he did... Ya know how damn hard it is to say to someone that ya love them and then they really dont mean it at all? Why is love so damn complicated? Why I ask myself? I feel like i have cried my last tears but they just seem to continue to flow more and more. The pain i feel is like ice cold water that is runnin thru my veins. The knife thats sears into the skin. The knife that pierces my heart. Or even the feeling of havin ya heart as glass and then dropped just as ya would a plate fallin to the floor and shattering. You promised to me that ya would never hurt me but thats just what ya did. Ya said I was ya one and only and no one elses. Ya asked me to marry you. Ya loved the way I had told ya about the kids being mine. Ya loved everything about me and then ya just kicked me away the dirt on the street. Ya say Ill find someone new....Ya have no idea how bad I just want it to be me and you not me and someone new. I left the man I was with for a while and that I was suppose to marry for you. Thats cause I had faith in you. Ya asked me if I loved you and I said yes I do. Ya asked me if I wanted you and again I said yes. I asked you how long do ya want to wait before we was to marry and ya said soon. Ya told me I'd see ya soon and now I wont. We was to go and start ring shopping when ya came to see me and now that wnt happen. I loved you and I still do.

As I lie here beneath the shadows of darkness I ask myself why why cause my life seems to be at a dead end Surrounded by hate and misery I feel as tho the end of the road is upon me and even nearer then before As I walk down this dreaded road I ask myself... Will it ever go away? This point in time I dont think it will That burning desire in me burns like a fire that rages out of control A fire that burns on forever As the devil takes my hand and walks me closer to that dead end path I quickly snap and wonder what is goin on here The devil turns to me and says Lanita your at the end of the road and it is now time to lie beneath the shadows of darkness As I stand on this dead end path, I shed a tear My tears are quickly absorbed by the intense heat of the walls of hell As I close my eyes I see a shallow grave of in the valley of distance Friends family and so forth are there to say their final goodbyes As their eyes fill with tears some of sadness pain sorrow and even some of joy As my coffin finally closes I will now lie beneath the shadows of darkness

Lying here with my head on my pillow, I wonder what it is your doing. I lie here and wonder are you thinking of me? Only you know that answer On these cold and lonely nights I close my eyes wishing you was here, lying next to me keeping me warm and safe Tho in my dreams you always keep me warm and safe I feel a great sense of wonder come over my body when I think of you I ask the lord above each and every night to bring you home to me safe and sound I see everyday couples holding hands cuddling together and kissing wishing that was us Knowing that we will be together forever, but we both know in time, that one day the time will come that we must say goodbye And when that day comes we will have shared many memories and good times together Until then we will cherish and love one another forever and always

As I lie here with my head on your chest I can feel your heart beating I feel you gently caressing my hair in your hand With the warmth of your breath upon my neck I feel your heart beginning to beat faster I lift my tired and weak head up and look deep into your eyes With a smile upon my face holding each other tightly and securely your hands leave my side and embrace my face with your hands as ya gently kiss my soft lips With my eyes closed I can taste every bit of your sweet kiss As our kiss deepens your heart beats faster then before Your kiss goes from my lips downward onto my body I feel your hands lightly touching my back, our breathing becomes more and more heavier I knew the moment my eyes met yours, that it was meant to be