XaviRoseMaiden's blog: "poetry"

Mum 

Mum i miss you like it was yesterday . 

 i wish all these tears .. would just float away ..

I want to escape this pain .. but i can't.. 

I want to be held by your arms but i can't ... 

I want to call you .. but i cant .. 

No phonecalls in heaven .. 

But i see in my dreams sometimes .. we laugh .. we fight .. 

we shop.. and i remember things i thought were gone ... 

Mum i wish wed had more time .. 

 i was looking forward to traveling with you .. when i got older .. 

yet our path didnt cross the way i wanted them to ... 

I had to watch you die .. 

  I had to see you cry ... 

I had to say goodbye .. 

not just good bye ... for a day . or a month or a year .. 

but forevermore .. 

They dont take phonecalls in heaven ... 

I can't skype you there .. 

I 'd anything to see you again .. 

I miss you soo freakin much .. 

We were best freinds ... 

I love you Mum ... 

Your grand daughter is eleven now .. like almost two when you died .. 

You wouldn't beleive how amazing she is .. 

You'd melt if you saw her smile 

 Shes so smart and so sweet .. 

I'd do anything to give her time to visit you there .. 

But life isn't fair .. 

Tragedy strikes in a moment and and everything .. 

you know and love can be gone ... 

I miss you so freakin much Mum .. 

right now i wish i was back home .. putting Roses on your grave stone .. 

thats what you deserve .. but Mum i'm here writing to you .. 

And loving you as i always do .. 

I wish i could go and visit you .. 

 and stop for a cup of tea.. 

 i wish i could go and visit you .. when the greiving just gets too much .. 

 i misss your incredible warmness i miss your incredible touch .. 

I miss your laugh .. i miss your smile .. 

I even miss watching the news with you .. 

Mum id do anything to have you back ... 

I love you so much 

Love always Your Darling Briar Rose 

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