Beautiful Angel SupportTheTroops's blog: "mother to be"

childbirth is suppose to be special both mother and father there to witness the moment of birth not just mother not alone alone through the whole pregnancy going through everything that's suppose to be special to the mother and father ever kick,every move, everything that has meaning but no life is not like that life is cruel life is so freaked up right now its not funny emotions that i never had are all rushing through me at once feelings that i never experienced are happening at all times of the day and night i got to see my baby for the first time the other day... but the daddy wasn't there i cried cause my unborn child was so beautiful but the daddy was not there to see his child i seen my child's heartbeat it was so magical yet the daddy wasn't there i want him to be here to see all the special moments i want him to be here to witness the birth of our child i want him to be here to hold or son or daughter when the birth takes place but no he doesn't want to be a daddy so i am alone through all the special moments that we were meant to share

he was suppose to be there for me we were dating...don't you see but he left me stranded high and dry with a baby on the way "not ready to be a daddy he says" "not ready for this" but am i? no.. will i struggle yes will i be the best mother i can be i hope so how can a man..turn into a boy over night he frightened to be a daddy yet he fights for our country how can that be ...will he ever grow up and truly see that he is going to be a daddy this baby should mean something to him ..but no he doesn't care about either of us if he did he would be here

i am to be a mother that was a shock to me never was this meant to happen like this not to me i was to be married first but no i was to have a guy that was willing to be there but no the daddy of the child doesn't care he doesn't want to be there i am keeping the child to raise i will NOT give it up i will be a good mother.... but my child will not have its father it will only have me