at times life becomes so confused
I wanna say complex,
but I am not that clear
but there is some lucidity that flows thru
sporatically
smiles abound
sometimes
worry lines
more often
the search is so tedious
so draining
so not freaking worth it
until that spark appears again
only to fade into opaqueness
but enough to keep me hooked
but how long??
the barb on the hook is dulling
not as tight
will I wiggle off the hook
will the hook rot and break
will I ever learn
will I even win
will I at least break even
where is the spark!
