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Well since my last update, I had almost given up. So I thought. I would still write offline messages in attempt to reach him. I eventually gave up on that too... so I thought. I don't know why, but the other day I decided to try and write him again. To my shock, He wrote back last night and I missed it. I was pissed! But I finally got a hold of him on the phone today, and was trying to fight back the tears of joy i had just to hear his voice again. I just now got off of the messenger with him. i told him about the blog and sent him the links. He was tearing, up he said. I'm a complete mess right now.. I'm still sopping up tears.
So, he told me that he had cracked, and got scared. After some time went by, he was scared to write me in fear that I had a boyfriend. He did't think I'd want to talk to him again.
We had this discussion before. I don't care what I have going on in my life, I will always want to hear from him. Even if I DID have a boyfriend... If he showed up at my door.... boyfriend would be gone.
I suppose this has to be true love. I don't go one day without thinking of him. I have tried to date, but I can't ever fully give my heart to another.
He was seriously contemplating doing something illegal to get the money to get here to me. Ha! He said he thought about just showing up at my front door one day. I told him I'd probably pass out.
What I wouldn't give to see him again. I would grow a left nut just to give it, to see him again. but tickets to Australia are astronomical! And I can't afford to take time off from work. I almost feel like starting a "Get Me to Australia" fund.
I suppose then, I'll have to see how this goes. I made him promise not to leave me again. I have died a little each time he disappeared. We shall see...
(to be continued?...)
UPDATE: I talked to him last night. His Birthday is October 12. The Aussie dollar has gone up and tickets to here are 1300. He really wants to get back here to me. SO cross your fingers on this too. This would be the best year of my life if everything that is going on right now came together.
