We woke up somber... knowing he had to go. I watched out the balcony and his bus rode away. I waved like an idiot hoping he could see. I walked back in the room feeling empty. I didn't understand the feeling. I had spent maybe 6 hours with this stranger and I felt a connection like I've never felt before. From there we talked on the phone incessantly. Anytime he had a signal we spoke. We decided that no matter what, we HAD to see each other again.
Ok first of all, I can't get a guy to buy me a half a pack of gum around here let alone fly me anywhere... but... he flew me out to LA to spend the last days he was going to be in this country. I was so nervous the day I flew out. I was anxious, scared, excited. We had been talking and emailing for a month since he left me on that bus. I pulled up in the airport shuttle. I got out, ready to puke. Then i saw him my heart leapt. I dropped my bags. He grabbed me and hugged me. We kissed for what seemed like an hour. (poor valet) We were staying at the Hollywood Renaissance Hotel. It was beautiful. We went up to the room to get me settled. He was already trying to see if he could take a later flight out, but it would have cost him 10,000 for the only seat he could get.
We went to dinner. It was some restaurant near the Kodak Theater. I don't remember which one because I didn't care. All I care about was that I was with him. I was happy... for once. Elated even. My head was swimming, confused by what I was feeling. It wasn't possible. i barely knew him.. well.. spent physical time with him. But in the time between his travels and all our correspondence, we really did get to know each other.
We went everywhere that day. All the fun museums and touristy things. Then we went out that night. We went to a place called The Pig'N'Whistle..lol. They had karaoke.. ruh roh... We had MORE fun. he seemed just amazed by everything I did./ I'd never had a man be so fascinated by me. I didn't really know what to do with it. But i liked it...
It was time to go back to the room. We were a little tipsy but felt great. I won't go into detail.. but NOW things happened. And it was amazing. It was the most amazing 'time' I ever had. I woke him up pleasantly in the morning... HE had never been woken up like that before..tee hee... We continued.. and ... I just knew. I'd never felt anything like this before. I didn't want to say anything. It was irrational. it made no sense and I didn't want to scare him... but while we went on.. a tear ran down my face. He felt it. and looked at me. and he knew too.
We went to breakfast and started to walk down Sunset. We walked all day without feeling tired; without realizing that our feet hurt, without realizing how fast time was going by. Until we almost ran out. He bought me some shoes on the way back so I'd be more comfy.. we had a LOOONG way to walk back. We also didn't realize how far we'd walked. We finally got back to the room to spend some "quality time" together. Again, I'd never felt so intense with anyone. I couldn't hold it back. I'm never the one who says it first. but it told him I knew it made no sense and maybe I don't know if this is what it is but, " I think I'm in love with you"... He looked at me and said, " I felt the same thing the first night we met. I just thought that it made no sense." I didn't want him to leave. I had never felt anything like this before.
His shuttle pulled up. My chest was caving in. My heart felt like it had the density of a dying sun. I sobbed. We were tasting each other's tears as we kissed on grasped each other goodbye. "I love you", he said. "I love you", I said. The bus pulled away. I felt empty again...
(to be continued again... again...)
