I just re-read an old email from an ex bf. A man I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with. One I thought really actually loved me. I was proven wrong when he emailed me accusing me of alot of junk. Maybe he wasnt so wrong. Not totally anyways. I would never lie or use him like he thought. But, maybe he is right that I belong alone. There is a man right now thats very dear to my heart. But maybe its best for the guy if I let him go. Ill probably just mess up his life to. It seems to be what I do when I find a wonderful man. I always find some way to mess it all up and hurt the man I care the most about. So, taking the advice of a man that seems to know me better then I first thought. Maybe it is time I let go of men once and for all. Maybe I should just stay single the rest of my life. Its better then messing up another wonderful mans life.
