I love you so much it kills me to see you hurting,
Knowing there's nothing I can do to comfort or fix you.
I want you so bad I die everytime you leave,
Knowing it is only for a short while.
But do I need you?
Do I need what you are a capable of?
Am I just lying to myself?
Maybe so....maybe so
Without our trials and tribulations
Life is nothing. It is empty and void.
Good things mean the same as the bad.
Can I take what is inevitable to come?
Should I just take the hurt now
And pray that it won't last for eternity?
Or can I even live with myself knowing...
Knowing the pain I caused was never what
I wanted for me...or you.
Yes, it is just as much my fault as yours
That this love has happened.
I knew I was falling for you...
Knew it before Him.
I couldn't push myself away then...
And it's so much harder to do now.
Curse this heart of mine.
Its undying love, understanding, compassion.
"Don't let me be your devil"
It would seem that I have become my own devil.
Just as I had told you.
When first we met, I was comfortable with you.
With who you were...and still are.
I felt no pressure to do anything I didn't wish to do.
Now here I sit, wondering what happened.
What made me fall in love with you?
I still do not know.
I am not sure I ever will.
*looks down a moment and laughs at herself...almost hysterical*
Can I trust you to give me 100% of you?
Can I have faith that you will be true to me?
You "love(d)" Her...but 3 days after meeting me...
Only 3 days...would you do the same to me?
I know how to love completely and unconditionally.
I can be the most loyal and faithful woman...
So long as I know the one I am with is worthy of it.
That he is true with me as I am him.
