ITS BEEN A WHILE SCINCE I BLOGGED REALLY BLOGGED NOT A POEM OR SOME CONTEST.
MAYBE THIS IS BECAUSE I HAVE SO MANY MIXED EMOTIONS INSIDE OF ME THAT I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN TO WRITE ABOUT IT.
I HAVE HAD SO MUCH GOING ON IN MY OFFLINE LIFE AS WELL AS MY ONLINE LIFE. A DEATH IN MY FAMILY THAT HIT ME REALLY HARD.
SAME TIME A SERIOUSLY BAD BREAK UP OF A 2 YR ONLINE RELATIONSHIP.I SO MUCH WANTED TO RUN FROM THIS PLACE..BUT THIS IS MY GET AWAY PLACE FROM MY REAL LIFE REALITY.
I HAVE A SELECT FEW FRIENDS WHOM HAVE TOUCHED MY LIFE WHO HAVE HELPPED ME THREW ALL OF THIS.. AND I CANNOT TELL YOU HOW MUCH YOU ALL REALLY MEAN TO ME..
YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE AND WHEN I AM TALKING DEPRESSION BULL SHIT . I TELL YOU TO FUCK OFF AND LEAVE ME ALONE. AND YOUR ALWAYS THERE TO WIPE MY TEARS AWAY.
EVERY TIME I WANNA CUT MYSELF YOUR THERE TO REMIND ME THAT PROMISE I MADE AND HOW STRONG OF A PERSON I AM AND THAT I CAN FIGHT THIS .EVEN WHEN I WAS OFF LINE I KNOW YOU KNO I THOUGHT ABOUT YOU
CAUSE I COULD FEEL YOU THINKING ABOUT ME..ONE THING I HAVE LEARNED PPL CAN ONLY BRING YOU DOWN IF YOU LET THEM.
AND YOU NEVER LET PPL BRING ME DOWN.. CAUSE WHEN I FEEL DOWN YOU ALWAYS REMIND ME THAT I HAVE A PLACE IN YOUR HEART THATS HIGHER THAN THE HIGHEST MOUNTIAN. WE CANNOT WIN THEM ALL NOW CAN WE?
YOU KNO ALL I WANNA DO IS LOVE..BUT MOST PPL WILL NEVR UNDERSTAND THE LOVE A PERSON LIKE I CAN OFFER.. THEY RUN FROM IT.WHY SI THAT CAUSE THEY THEM SELFS LACK THE CONFEDINCE THAT ANOTHER CAN LOVE THAT TYPE OF LOVE.
THIS BLOG ISNT DIRRECTED AT ONE PARTICULAR PERSON IT IS DIRRECTED AT THOSE WHOM I LOVE IN SOME WAY SHAPE OR FORM .. AND HWOM LOVE ME AND WANT THAT BACK SO DESPERATLY....I WANTED TO TELL YOU ALL THAT I ALSO LOVE .. I LOVE SO MUCH MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW
AND YOU MAY NEEVR KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. CAUSE I CNANOT GIVE YOU THAT DOORWAY TO HURT ME... THATS THAT SMOOCHES MUCH LOVE LADY KAOS...
