Woo's blog: "Steph's Musings...."

My grandmother passed away last Thursday. Up until 2 years ago I hadn't seen her in probably 13 years. And I only saw her then because my grandfather passed away. Technically she would be my step-grandmother but she never treated me as a step-grandchild. I have better memories of her growing up than of my blood grandmother. Her passing has made me very angry at my family in general. Angers me that people allow such petty shit to keep them from family they love. I mostly blame my grandfather because he didn't want to be that involved in his own children's lives anymore, but my father didn't exactly go out of his way to mend any bridges. Therefore after I turned 10, I never got to see those grandparents anymore. Until one passed away. I never really got to tell either of them that some of my fondest summer memories was going down to Iowa and spending months down there. Going swimming at the community pool, going to see Temple of Doom w/ g-ma and her making me sleep w/ her because she was afraid of the rats, helping them run their pet supply store and them allowing me to work the register at 9(i was a smart one then :P)...And so many other great memories. There is so much other family BS I could go into here, but I just really wanted to vent on how I've been feeling over the last few days. I did make sure to tell her children(from her previous marriage before my grandfather) how much she meant to me and my regret of never trying to get back in touch with her. And they also reassured me that she loved me dearly and also regretted the nasty turn my family took 15 years ago.