Thank a soldier's blog: "life"

Well i finished my first week at my new job..love its so far..like the people..the work..not really loving the commute but it works. In all of this i have really been learning alot about myself. Which of course is never a bad thing.. I have learned i am alot smarter then i thought i was (that is with numbers) i have never been an english major lol My old job didnt pay me for the last week i worked and none of my vacation time so i went to the union...guess its a fight between them now..problem is im going on vacation next week..have no bills paid and no money..but oh well i will spend alot of time at the beach lol.. im very nervous about leaving the kids for a week..granted they are 17 and 15 but i have never been on vacation without them. Really i have never been away from them at all since they were born and the 3 of us have been nowhere since the seperation and divorce..thats been about 4 yrs..oh well i need to let go alittle i guess. oh another front i also have been learning about people in general. i had a good friend (well i thought it was a good friend) tell me i have a "why me" attitude and i like drama..two things im so against its not funny..funny people really think they know u but when the chips fall..they dont have a freaking clue. but if u all think i have that attitude also then maybe its true..so im back in my whatever..no trust..cut me a break..dont feed me bullshit and prove everything.. i hate to be that way..but right now..everyone on here is way to far away to prove anything thing to me..i hate the i care for u. the next minute they are feeding someone else the same shit..and im not only talking about on here..yes i really do have a life lmao :) ok thats all the excitement for today..have a great one! im outta here