hi
Current mood: intimidated
How was everyone's weekend?
Mine was ok. I spent a lot of it cleaning. I didn't get much school stuff accomplished, but atleast my house is cleaner. My roomate had a friend over for dinner saturday. He seemed pretty cool. The food was excellent. I drank too much. It didn't seem to be an excessive amount, but I haven't drank much recently with school and all. I didn't throw up, or try to make out with anyone though. Or atleast not that I can remember. I just passed out in my chair in my living room. My back doesn't feel real great now. I had a headache when I woke up. But whatever.
I was drinking apple smirnoff vodka. It was good. I almost got blueberry, but I was in more of an apple mood. I also bought Absolute Pear. I haven't tried any of it yet. Maybe next weekend or something.
There's another girl that seems to like me now. She liked my profile on one of the various pages that I'm on. The numbers thing kinda works. I don't know how effectivly, but it works. If I talk to a thousand people on the internet, one of them will probably kinda like me? lol. I haven't met her in person, just talked to her on the phone, and online and stuff. I guess I'll see where that goes. She asked what kind of relationship I was looking for. I basically said I don't know. I'm just busy with school, and I figure I'll hangout with whoever wants me around and see what happens.
Next week is going to be busy with all my tests. I'm kinda panicky, and I hope it doesn't affect me when I'm taking the tests. Stats show that it will. But whatever.. lol. There's also a lot I want to do nextweek besides school stuff. I really want to hangout with Chrissa again soon.I haven't been around her for a week. I guess I just have to be patient. There's plenty of time for everything, and school should be my main prioraty right now with all the tests coming up.
Some people might be thinking they don't really want to hear about all the stuff mentioned. Or that they don't want others to hear it. I'm just writing about my life right now. It's a blog, it's not a letter being sent out to any individual to " rub things in their face". Sometimes I don't write some of the things that are on my mind because I know people read these, and I don't want them to feel weird, or upset. For example, sometimes people don't like me mentioning them in my blog. People sometimes get worried about whether I'll blog about event a, b, or c. I usually just write about how things relate to me here. So yah, maybe it seems conceited. Like with the pictures, other people don't like me talking about them though. So I'm either conceited talking about myself all the time, or I'm sharing stuff that people don't consider other people's buisness.. It's a catch 22 sort of thing. I just can't win.
Anyway, I care about lots of people, and sometimes it's hard not to write about the stuff that's on my mind. Those people are on my mind all the time. So sorry if you ever feel uncomfortable because I mention you or whatever.
I uste to write my thoughts and feelings out about everyone and everything. There was a nice theraputic aspect to it. It was ok, no one ever read them anyway. Now enough people read them, that I can't really do that. I make some of them private, or only readable to certain people. I guess I could just write private stuff more often and write about everything. It makes it seem like there is something wrong with my thoughts if I can't share them with people though.
I guess if you get upset by anything, let me know. And/or don't read my blogs. I can't assure you anything positive will happen if you do let me know, but I can assure you nothing will happen if you don't.
