In the past couple of months i have been feeling like that i could never find true love again. And i sit here and think that maybe i am right. I have one love in my life and that is my son. Sometimes i think bout what my life would be like if i stayed wit his mother. Thank god that i am not wit her anymore. My life was hell being wit her i could not work without her thinking that i was cheating on her. I could not have female friends without her thinking that i was cheating on her wit them. It got to the point to where i stop talkin to everyone and didn't talk to anyone at my job to. There is alot of things that i miss. I miss being able to hold someone at night being able to kiss someone before bed and miss getting up next to that someone in the moring. Everyone may think that i am a thug and that i could never love anyone. But the truth bout that is i am not a thug. I just really don't care what other ppl have to say bout me. I am glad that i have my friends and glad that i have my family and my son. And i am glad that i have my fubar friends to. Sometimes i just feel like breaking down and crying all the time. And i kno that its not good to do that. I would like to thank all of my friends for being there for me and all the ones that i talk to all the time. And to the one that i miss so fucking much you kno who you are if you read this. good night all
