Sometime i think that i am not going to know what true love is anymore. I have feelings for someone and its hard for me to tell that person my feelings. Cause i don't kno what she will say or do. She does not live in the same state as me. And i always said to myself that i would not get like this again. I just can't help myself. I really like this girl alot and she knows that i do. But i don't kno how she feels bout me. She has been there for me since the frist day that i met her. And she knows that i have a son to. Its just i think that i am going to be a single father for the rest of my life. Everyone is telling me that i will find that someone but i truly think its not goin to happen for me. I know that there is nothing wrong wit me. Its just i am so sick of being alone. I just miss that feeling of being loved and being with someone. Being able to go to the movies,dinner just staying at home and watching a movie and cuddling up and being able to hold that someone. Sometimes i wish that it was not hard for me to tell that person my feelings its just i am scared of getting hurt again and i kno that my heart can't take it anymore. I am not looking out for myself i am looking out for my son i don't want him to see me happy and than get hurt cuz i kno that it will kill him inside. And i don't want that to happen to him. I look at me son everyday and i thnk god for blessing me with him. Without him i would have nothing at all. I love him with everything that i have.
