I never wanted it to be this way,
to live in sorrow every day.
I had always kept hope in my mind,
tryin to leave these tears behind.
But, somehow i get dragged back in,
i guess this is my punishment from all that i've sinned.
So weak i kneel to pray,
bleeding tears taste in my mouth as i say.....
"Dear God, forgive me for i have sinned,
but this is no cofession, i pray for the end.
I've lived my life through hardships and all,
i never thought you'd let me fall"
"I guess i wasn't important enough for you to make my hand, as you can see now, i can barely stand.
Its my fault though, i was too weak.
I've died inside with no solutions to seek."
"I blame myself for the mess that i'm in,
i blame myself for how things have been.
You may have held out your hand but i was too blind to see, but everythings been done. Just let me be."
"I have one last request if i may ask,
protect and comfort my family and friends, i don't want them sad.
Help them understand i stopped loving myself, but i'll always love them,
please don't ever let them feel the way i am."
"Watch over them and give them your love,
protect them from high above.
I'm too weak now, my lips are so dry,
I'm so sorry this is how i have to die."
"Send me now to where i belong,
send me to the place where all is wrong.
Tell my loved ones, they are forever in my heart,
even though i am gone, my love will never depart"
my last breath escapes with my soul,
my eyes pitch black, they seem like empty holes.
But i lay there with a smile on my face,
i know my last moments were not a waste......
