What was heard day in and day out, you're fat, you're stupid, you are a nobody, and mean nothing. Shut up I am watching t.v. I don't want to hear about it. Birthdays being forgotten, no one caring you're a year older. Feeling worthless and not wanting to be around. Contemplaiting suicide, but to scared to do it. Getting bitched at because you can't speak your mind from all the mental abuse. Shutting down when things get bad and just crying constantly. Fighting tears just to get a word out, and feel like you are sounding stupid and fearing the person you are arguing with thinks your stupid. Not feeling loved and feeling rejected by all. Happiness being a facade so everyone will stop asking what's wrong, being tired of answering the question over and over again. You see them, and think they are the happiest person in the world, but then behind closed doors, you'd never recognize them.
Do any of you think you really, truely know the REAL me? With my facade? No one knows the real me. What I think, what I want in life. No one cares to know. None of you that read this, which will be very few, don't really know who I am and how hard I try to fit in and be like everyone else. Pretending everything is ok, when actually nothing really is.
