XaviRoseMaiden's blog: "poetry"

..all i wanted was a fried , to have unti lthe very end ,

 someone who'd hold my hand smile ..

all i wanted was a kind smile

 all hug which lasted a while

al i wated was some respect , but its so hard to find..

i wish i could go back in time ..

 jump in time machine ..

and real be a lady and with gentleman , i barely feel like i belong here

this world is so cold sometimes .. nothing can hide from the chill

 the many frowns

the frowns .. which say your not from here .. are you ..

so many questions .. it feels like an interrigation..

no im not a tourist , ive lived here  quite a while

no im in school ..

no i dont really want to tell you my life story ..

i just want to be me ..

if only i could belong

my heart feel so full of glee

sometimes i think if only i wasn't me

too much hate and not enough love

 it makes me want to jio the love up above ..

barely someone willing to lift a hand

 its too big a job for just me ..

why are pll so cruel ..

i dont want to be loves fool ..

i dont want to spend niights cryig into my pillow.. if only i could have kept my tears , then he might understand ..

a piece of me .. is now gone

 a piece of me .. has moved on...

a little step , but it tryig to hold i dont want to fall

 back down ito the gloom of it all

i hold my head high , yet still feel the pain

i just want the bad memories to fade ..

and try to replace them with new ones

i wish my heart could get cold ..

i wish my mind , could learn not to care ..

but his words cut like a knife

his cold words cut so deep , and inside the poison tries to creep

 his poisness words like lead

they stay , they stay inside my head

they my fill my mind with , i try  , itry to shake them out ..

those things he said they are not true ...

thats not what i would do

his words knock me down .. and make me feel so small

 as if i was only 3 inches tall ..

i tell myself i need to build a wall .. i cannot let his cruel words stay .. i must find something to help thme go away ..

theres alots of hope , theres lots of joy .

 but every once in while there come the tears ..

trying to forget those miserable years ...