For most of my life,I have always gave in to people.I will totally forget about something I want and just do what someone eles wants instead.I give in to people i love like my family or spouse.There have been time were I will not give at all but most of the time Its me giveing in.But everytime I have give in I have never forgotten or forgiven.I will hold it againest you if I give into you.This time tho its different.Im not being asked to simply change my mind or plans but to give up something that I have always wanted for something that I hate the thought of doing and cry when i think of it.It makes me sad and angery to think about it.I know I will forever be mad over it.and I know i will hold a grudge for the rest of my life.I know me.I know how i am.I want something so bad but have to give up everything I have always wanted to get it.Its not far.Im just as good as anyone eles and i want what every other girl gets.Its not worth it at all.I hate being angery.It is not a feeling I like to feel at all.I think it make the body sick.And I cant get mine to go away.
