Just having one of those nights!! When my head is full and my heart is over flowing. Just that I've done alot of going here and there ,and not staying in one place to long!! Never leting anyone get to close or to far either. Anyways was playing catch up with a friend today. I got some bad news ,that I wasn't ready for!! She's going under theknife for the second time for cancer. The first time they didn't think she would make it and now she's a few years older!!
I just don't know what to think or feel. I'm wondering how are we goin to tell her grand kids whats happening to grandma. I know she 56 but to me thats still to young to die from it,the doctor are being no help to our minds. I already lost three people I loved and cared about to cancer. One of them wasn't to long ago and here I am once again watching the whole thing happen all over again. The toughest part is she telling me to leave,I just don't know how to take that. I mean most my from the time I was 14 to know she has alwasy been like a mom to me,i just don't know how to deal with this. So once again I find my mind full and my heart over flowing. Anyways, I'm going to stop before I start crying again.
