If this makes no sense just deal with it. I'm on the edge and one more push will see me fall...
I don't know wich is worst-- the worrie or the anger...Or the fear i must admit is there.
This all seems a nightmeare yet I cannot wake up.
To make it short my wife to be is in the hospital. She's been admitted. Yeah more bleeding.
Yeah the fact slaped us in the face that we just may lose this baby. Yes, I said we.
I'm home only long enough to shower n change.I won't be leaveing her side after this.I just needed to make sure my housemates made it back so I didn't relie on CC to watch there kids for to long. They're home so I'm going back.
And OMG! My anger grew!!The bitch cunt that is responsable for this whole thing had brass balls and showed up here.She was esquarted off the esstate by the body guards my one housemate has.
To bad they didn't just allow the dobbi's to rip her apart.I know that sounds cold n crule. She deserves no mercy. And my rage is earned fully. The hate I feel I've never felt b4 ever.
I try not to give in to rage.But this time? No stopping it.I stand to lose not only my unborn child but my soulmate as well. I shit you not.
As I've said b4 fuck with me all you want..fuck with mine your going to live to see it was your worst mistake.Harming my child n wife(I already feel she's my wife)? Well it goes to far.
And the rage is allowed to bubble. Waiting for it's proper time to overflow and burn some cunt.
It will to nature of the beast I am.
Add to that the fact that my best frind/bandmate/housemate is being fucked with yet again by her ex. Well not directly but by one of his little spies.And well...world war 3 might look taim next to me at the moment.
What I do not get is..why he cares? She tried to be his friend even after all the fucked shit he did. he wanted no part of that.Yet,he gets people to spy on her now? Report back to him so he can send lame emails about her to her? I know he's just an assmunch but it's so preschool!I guess she was s'post to just forever mourn his "lost" an stay as sad and fucked up as he always was.
Seeing her happy is something he can't stand. So he tries to rip it down. rip her down. Take her back to the shell of herself she was with him.
Again-- I do not understand that at all.
A case of I don't want you..yes I do..but only cause your someone elses.
I've offered to deal with him for her. I do hope she takes me up on it...
Ok enough of my madness for this one..
