it always the same..you try to make sure that you're not the one...you even ask them if it is..what's their response..no...so to make sure you let them have some space..but sure enough that space just seems to grow..so what do you do....fight to keep them..an all that does is push them away...an then at the end...they're the one to end it...you try an try to stop it but it doesn't matter....so as they go on you're the one who is left in the abyss...trying to figure out what to do next....the pain you feel weights you down..dragging you down further down...you try to fight your way up..but after sometime it dawns on you that after fighting so many times before that now you have nothing left in you to fight with...with this realized you start to allow yourself to sink even further down...you have no clue who you can trust anymore...friends..sometimes family...as you sink you can "hear" yourself scream....but there's no one listening...you know you can't answer it cuz it's you other part screaming for things to go back..but you know that can't happen...not now..things need to be different...in yourself an in them...who knows what fate has in store....the only thing you know is the pain...you feel they don't care or even miss you...some say they would love to be with someone who will treat them right..but when they get to you you over do it cuz you want to make up for all they pain they have gone thru....an now all that you have done has left you in sinking deeper into the darkness just wishing for someone to share you life with...you fear the only thing fate has in store for you is..dieing old and alone in a recliner...so befor you just jump into something....stop an thing about the pain you might cause someone....think back when it had happened to you...do you want to make someone to feel that way......I'm not saying not get into something..just think first....take things slow..one day at a time....please learn from my mistakes...
