when i said roses are red and violets were blue, i should have know it wasn't good enough for you. For you, it's all about image and looks. superficialness and self- centerness is what is about you. Love is a empty emotion for you. i don't believe you have truly felt it..save 3. I guess showing you Love was a bad thing or these words would not be spoken. you were my all, an I was......??what was i to you???besides a friend?No drama you said.you hated it you said..but why did you do what you did when you did??I can not believe i allowed you to take away almost everything that made me me..i threw myself out there in a attempt to heal all the wounds that were not mine..i guess i threw myself out there to far, for i had a hard time finding my way back to me..what a skeletal wreck i was when i finally found me..so ashamed of myself for being what i had become..i was so destroyed that i started having thought i swore i would never have again..i was at the brink of self destruction..so close..do you have any idea what it is like to be a prisoner in your own body..to watch yourself wither away as you scream at your self to to stop it..but your body doesn't listen...to not be able to go an get what must be had for physical nourishment..to sit inside yourself an watch as the ones who love you go thru that death with you..all you want to do is hide away so you do not hurt the ones around you..but all they are trying to do is do what you have done for them on countless occasions.to be strength when none is found in yourself.i didn't see it for this at first..i tore away almost all the things of my individuality...i started to doubt my our self..my own thoughts and my own reason...then the night where you did what you did where you did it..something inside me finally snapped an screamed"ENOUGH"..i should thank you for that..cuz you helped me find a part i thought i had lost..a new flame an strength burned inside me..cuz now i am me..being almost ever bit of the one you said you fell in love with...no more emotions to cloud my logic..but i have had days where i have found you crawling around in my mind..an now,today especially of all days, for it is the day for love and lovers..befor we got together you knew i didn't like this day..now i think that i may have actually loathe this day... i feel that this day shall always,in some way, be shrouded in nightly colors..i feel i shall carry the scar of us with me always..left with the hungry for a loving embrace..the soft an tender caress of another.. i lay awake at night screaming inside of this nightmare to be over..to be held with eternal love....thanks..an..Happy Valentines Days..
Signed
The Crow
wrote Febuary 14th,2007 6:57pm
