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Curvalicious Beisha's blog: "Judged"

created on 11/10/2006  |  http://fubar.com/judged/b23270

Woooow so it's been a loooooong time since I've been on here. Been engaged, been cheated on, and walked out on by my kiddo's father. Life has been very interesting over the last 2 years since I've posted on here. It's so different and I feel like I know nobody on here anyone...weird... so yeah.

me...again

Thrown away again. Nothing more then worthless trash. Sucked dry of any life Use up all my energy Shove me away as you disappear Build me up to break me down Push me against the wall and steal my sanity Make me lose faith all over again Teach me to never trust Show me how horrible people really are Alter my mind Whisper that I'm not worth anything Devastate me Change me Use me Abuse me Terrify me Force me Injure me Reject me Hate me Make me less then a person

Happy saint Patty's day!

Happy St.Patrick's day everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lotsa luv to ya'll and hope everyone is having a fabulous day today... Today is a big anniversary for me since 2 years ago today, i found out I was pregnant with my lil princess, Chloe'... Was a massively crazy day, and having to spend the night in the ER with an IV in your arm is not a groovy way to celebrate it! But she's good, I'm good, we're all good...although i am incredibly exhausted after like 3 hours of sleep... but i'm actually more fun when I'm sleep deprived! WOO HOO!!!!lol everyone be safe!

idk anymore

Idk... I feel like turning into a hermit or something... Pulling myself away from every source of human life... away from everyone that can hurt me. Cuz that's the only thing people do to me now...I just am sooooo tired of it. I always help everyone else out...wish someone was there for me...

well hell.

damn i'm obviously pretty lame cuz no one is talking to me anymore on here. Fuck.

I'm....

Extremely freaking bored... someone message me!!!! curvybeisha85@sbcglobal.net on yahoo and BeishaLady85 on AIM

Deleting

Ok.. I know the whole point of this thing is to get as many friends as possible, basically... But I'm not wanting that. I don't give a shit if you give me points or what not. You wanna stay friends with me, you gotta add me... cuz I'm gonna start deleting soon...so let me know!

Tired of being me

I really am... in the span of 1 week, life has gone from really good to fucking horrible. I feel like I'm becoming numb again, how I did when my depression was really bad. I'm so tired of being lonely. I'm tired of feeling like any guy I even look at is gonna fuck me over. I seriously try and be optimistic, and it hurts even more. It's like, why try?

me

My world feels upside down I yearn for joy, for love, for laughter I want to be happy To feel someone craving and adoring me No lies. No games. No pain.No tears. No more. Satisfaction. Passion. Smile. Everyone and yet no one Nothing Bring me joy Bring me love Bring me happiness Make me believe Make me see Make me smile Make me forget That I'm all alone
"You oughta know" I want you to know that I'm happy for you I wish nothing but the best for you both An older version of me Is she perverted like me Would she go down on your in a theater Does she speak eloquently? And would she have your baby I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother 'Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no And every time you speak her name Does she know how you told me you'd hold me Until you died, 'til you died But you're still alive And I'm here to remind you Of the mess you left when you went away It's not fair to deny me Of the cross I bear that you gave to me You, you, you oughta know You seem very well, things look peaceful I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity I hate to but you in the middle of dinner It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced Are you thinking of me when you fuck her 'Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no And every time you speak her name Does she know how you told me you'd hold me Until you died, 'til you died But you're still alive And I'm here to remind you Of the mess you left when you went away It's not fair to deny me Of the cross I bear that you gave to me You, you, you oughta know 'Cause the joke that you laid in the bed that was me And I'm not gonna fade As soon as you close your eyes and you know it And every time I scratch my nails down someone's back I hope you feel it...well can you feel it Heh heh heh...Its an old song but its oh so true. Thats just to all the guys that have broken my heart, just in time for Valentines day... No I'm no longer holding any grudges...but I'm just in a goofy mood and thought it would be perfect...This time last year, I got a ring for Valentines day...hah hah that went into the trash a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG time ago...hah hah.... It don't hurt anymore! I'm so fucking happy! None of the exs cross my mind hardly anymore and thats so good...I'm FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank god. I deserve so much better then that shit. Thats all the past is is Shit. Heh heh. My angel baby doll is my present and my future and she is all that matters now. Lol I love how everyone keeps telling me that if Kenny wanted back in the picture that I need to let him in. Fuck that. He isn't on the birth certificate, he isn't listed as the father, so technically he has no rights. And THANK GOD for that. Not like he would give a shit. Oh well;. One day. He'll come back one day and will try to get to know Chloe' and he will have to answer to her why " daddy didn't love her" and "why daddy didn't wanna be around her". I'm not telling her a word about him when she grows up though. Cuz I'm happy. I'm happy with my baby girl and my life. And thats all that matters. Don't like it, then fuck off.
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