we lay awake livin praying and thinking. we lay awake hoping for love from many. few of us knows whats wanted from heart but many knows whats just wanted from the start. life isnt carma of so why are so many, wishing and praying for that one to be with. if life was fair we would all be friendly if life was fair we wouldnt want much. life is unfair so we sit and we cry. wishing and praying for someone to wipe that tear from your eye. few of us find that one who we should be with and of that few only few stay with. we get so scared from hurt pain and lies. we get so hurt we just want to run and hide. we feel deep in our heart deep deep inside that someone may be there but never do we confide in those ones who truely are there. we think and we thought we have the best things. we wish the ones were with are the ones in the end. we use and get used and dont even care, those who matter isnt always going to be there. life is unfair it scares us to death. those who matter usually have there heart ripped from there chest. there hurt by those, theyfeel they can trust and they are hurt by those who never cared to touch. they get abused and treated of trash. they get hurt but still they stay awake. then the day comes when you finallyarent scared, to take that step but by that time its usually too late. life isnt guranteed trust me i know. life isnt great its only what you make of it.you can try to be happy and try t make things right. you can try to make whats fair the best in the world but the truth behind this is its never to work. people come and they go and they stay happy today. people come and they go and die the next day. life is short for few and long for many. life takes away whats really meant to be. if you use and abuse whats truely there and act as if nothing wll care then what you say and you do may be the last they ever knew. speaking from someone of pure loss and despaire, life can hurt you if you dont take the chance thats given to you. life is s hard and so hurtful inside. life is so evil and makes you dispise. so many take lives due to the fact they get scared. some people take there live cuz they cant seem to bare. so much hurts and runs from inside as we areselfs just want someone right. my feelings are strong as my mind is to but for some my walls drop within moments. i cant say who this person is inside but know that i think i found that person who makes things right. the best things in life are worth waiting for deeply but the prolblem with this is life doesnt want for no one. you can care and you can care and run fast to the front but if life makes it harder for the rest you come back to the end. no matter what you feel it must be both ways. no matter wha you know it must be enclosed. some feelings can scare people from day to day but those who care will never run away. i must leave this thought by saying farewell. but i will leave with a question that some may help with. if life is solong for some many, and so short for others why does true love seem to be hidden.if its so hidden why cant we have longer, to find the ones we care for and make them see the light? well i have to get going my throughts have grown thin, have to get going so i can let you in. this may be the first set of thoughts but i doubt its the last.i just hope when i return it better then this. take care an farewell i dont know what to do take care and farewell ill see you all soon.....
