Big Cat Fu owned by 2cute4u fu engaged 2's blog: "Just ramblings My mind wonders about"

Some days that is exactly how I feel....invisible. Other days I feel just unwanted by the world as a general. I do have the good days that things work out and all is perfect in the world. But more often than not, I either feel just invisible or a burden. I don't obviously want this to sound like I am whining. I am just explaining My thoughts. I often wonder what would be like for the life of My family if I had never been born. I know that with My disability My family has given up on a lot in their lives. My family never had good jobs or cars or houses. As a matter of fact, My family lives in one that has been a work in progress for 15 years. My father is now disabled as well so that doesn't help and to add to it, My mother may be on disability soon as well. If I hadn't managed to get on disability as early as I did, we would have been done for long ago. At last estimate, we figured I am worth about 1.3 million dollars in medical expenses.

And why do I feel invisible? Simply because I can never seem to get the attention needed to find a beautiful woman to be with in My life regardless how many times online I get told that I am "sexy" or "hot" or whatever they say to try to boost My ego temporarily. Again this in My opinion stems back to My disability. I have seen the looks I've gotten from a distance from some and when I do get the nerve to try to talk to someone I am attracted to, it seems they find Me to be more of a "friend" type only than anything, which makes Me think it has to do with the chair as well.