I don't know why I'm typing this here. People on this site aren't here to actually learn anything about a person.
I feel like locking myself in my room and never coming out.
I feel like I need 'God' to love me and magically make me better.
I don't feel like I need a savior from sin though, only from pain.
I don't feel like sleeping.
I feel like: abandoning all my views and doing something radically 'sinful' (in the views of a church that is).
I feel like keeling over and never getting up.
I feel like I've lived a lie.
I feel like this is a waste of time.
I feel like everything I have ever done has been a waste of time.
I feel like I deserve nothing, but expect everything.
I feel speechless and dumbfounded like a child who doesn't know yet how to speak.
I don't feel like a child of 'God.'
I feel like being completely honest.
I feel like ditching my plans tomorrow to go see my nephew, spend time with my family, and to hang out with Alex and Scott. Instead....
I feel like locking myself in my room by placing the mattress in front of the door until the tomorrow, then skipping town to avoid everyone and everything.
Mood:Cold.
Music:Heaven Hell and Hand Me Down, by Rutkus 
