Fatal Passion's blog: "Inside My Mind"

A woman can tell, by the way, when you're into it, versus just fucking it. (And there's nothing wrong with just fucking it, but GOD, there's nothing like someone having to stop repeatedly and breathe while softly rubbing your bottom with both palms, then swallowing deeply and pounding it twice before having to stop again..." And I thought just how true this is. So many men just fuck and don't really feel the pleasure of it, nor do they extend that sensation by giving back to the other person. Sometimes men just masturbate using a woman's body instead of their hand, and believe me, us women ALWAYS know the difference...

Please read; because,whether you love him or loathe him, he truly nailed this one right on the head.... THIS...is JUSTICE ? by Rush Limbaug: I think the vast differences in compensation between victims of the September 11 casualty, and those who die serving our country in Uniform, are profound. No one is really talking about it either; because you just don't criticize anything having to do with September 11. Well, I can't let the numbers just pass by; because it says something really disturbing about the entitlement mentality of this country. If you lost a family member in the September 11 attack, you're going to get an average of $1,185,000. The range is a minimum guarantee of $250,000, all the way up to $4.7 million... However; if you are a surviving family member of an American soldier killed in action, the first check you get is a big $6,000 direct death benefit, half of which is taxable. Next, you get $1,750 for burial costs. If you are the surviving spouse, you get $833 a month until you remarry. And there's a payment of $211 per month for each child under 18. When the child hits 18, those payments come to a screeching halt. Keep in mind that some of the people who are getting an average of $1.185 million up to $4.7 million are complaining that it's not enough. Their deaths were tragic, but for most, they were simply in the wrong place at the wrong time. But our military men allow themselves to be put in harm's way FOR ALL OF US , and they and their families know the dangers.... ( a willing sacrifice...) We also learned over the weekend that some of the victims from the Oklahoma City bombing have started an organization asking for the same deal that the September 11 families are getting. In addition to that, some of the families of those bombed in the embassies are now asking for compensation, as well. You do see where this is going, don't you? Folks, this is part and parcel of over 50 years of entitlement politics in this country. It's just really sad. Every time a pay raise comes up for the military, they usually receive next to nothing of a raise. Now the green machine is in combat in the Middle East, while their families have to survive on food stamps and live in low-rent housing . Make any sense? However, our own Congress voted themselves a raise. Many of you don't know that they only have to be in Congress one time to receive a pension that is more than $15,000 per month! ( And most are now equal to being millionaires plus.) They do not receive Social Security on retirement, because they didn't have ! to pay into the system. If some of the military people stay in for 20 years and get out as an E-7, they may receive a pension of $1,000 per month, while the very people who placed them in harm's way receives a pension of $15,000 per month... I would like to see our elected officials pick up a weapon and join ranks, before they start cutting out more benefits and lowering pay for our sons and daughters who are now fighting!

A friend and I were talking about sex last night, and I told him I knew someone that would only do it missionary style. At the same time, we both said that you should use a MINIMUM of three positions during just about any round of sex. This is now known as the "Three Position Rule". Of course there will be exceptions as there are to all rules.... like when you're getting a quickie in public

As I am sure most of my friends know, John(my b/f of the past 6 yrs) has been in the hospital for the past 6 1/2 weeks with kidney failure and then a mass of other issues on top of that. So many times in the past 6 weeks, things were looking really good and then within hours it seemed like it would make a huge turn for the worse. Be it the swelling in his neck that closed his wind pipe, the unexplained fevers of 104 for a week or more at a time and the docotrs not finding anything that caused them, several lung infections, a collapsed lung, unexplained raises in his heart rate and crazy low blood presure... just to name a few things... Well after 6 long weeks, we talked the doctors into trying to remove his sedation. In the past when they tried, John would beome very angry and fight to get out of bed, so they would resedate him again. Friday after talking with his doctors we found no reason for him to be sedated any longer and pretty much told them that they are going to have to deal with his reactions no matter when they lift the sedation, be it that day or weeks in the future. It tok a while to get the doctors to agree to trying to lift it again, but they agreed to do it aslong as I was able to be there when they did it. I am so happy to say that this weekend they have lifted most of the sedation. John is responding and asking for things. I was able to help him stay calm during this and he is reacting very well, aside from getting tired often. They are also taking him off the ventilator for short periods of time (between 4-6 hours) to help him build back his breathing in hopes that within a week he will not need the ventilator at all. To some, this may seem like small steps, but to me it has made all the tears, heart break and let down of the past 6 weeks all worth it. Christmas was the perfect time for this to happen. For as long as I am alive, this will be remembered as the most wonderful gift I have ever gotten.

I've changed a lot in the last year. It used to be I wouldn't say shit if I had a mouthful of it. Now I can't seem to hold my tongue. For example: I went out with a friend of mine. We were at a dance club, and these two younger guys invite themselves to sit at our table. One is trying to impress us with outrageous stories. All I can do is roll my eyes. Finally he says, "You ladies look like you're looking for love." That's when I couldn't restrain the Queen Bitch any longer. I looked him dead in the eye and said, "Number one, I never claimed to be a lady. Number two, don't be projecting onto me what you're here for. And number three, You've obviously mistaken lust for love." He was either too drunk, or too stupid to get it. So he says, "So what are you here for then?" I look at him and explain in a tone of voice you reserve for just such tedious people and say, "I'm here to watch the rest of you desperate people trying to get laid." Another example happened the other night online. I was in a chatroom and kept getting whispered by creeps wanting to cyber. Finally, about the 3rd of 4th one I got fed up. He started in and I just typed, "What makes you men think that the verbal gropings of illiterate strangers is any kind of a turn on?" He left me alone. Another guy I called a mono-syllabic moron. I don't think he knew it was an insult... There are many more stories similar to this one. I think the Queen Bitch is firmly in place now, and isn't going to be going anywhere anytime soon.

People want to blame TV, music and video games for the problems with our youth today. Those things are controllable, and in my opinion, can actually be used as a learning tool. In and of themselves, they are not the problem. People just want to point a finger so they don't have to face the guilt of not being their for their children. Yes, left to themselves with these kinds of media can affect a child, but that does not mean it is the fault of TV, music and video games. It's the parents that are allowing their children to spend countless hours absorbing this material without any guidance. Almost every parent I know who has a child over the age of 7 has allowed their children to have a TV, VCR and video game console in the child's room. When you allow 24/7 access to these things without any guidance or control, of course it's going to have an impact on a child. When you put these things in your child's room, you are affectively encouraging your child to spend even more time away from the family. This is where the problems begin. Another problem I've noticed is with smaller children. Parents and caregivers using the TV as a babysitter. They are too busy to deal with the child, so they turn on the TV or pop a movie in the VCR to keep the child occupied. Then they wonder where a child learns some behaviors. People don't want to make the effort required to guide their children. They want the government to set controls so they don't have to. They are affectively saying, "protect my child so I don't have to bother." Raising children is a full time job in itself, and with most of us working outside the home it makes that job even more difficult... but not impossible. We had the children. They are our responsibility .What they learn (morals, values and ethics) is up to us... no one else.

Ok so I was talking to one of my best friends the other day and some how the subject got turned to oral sex and he mentioned that he wasn't a big fan of recieving a blowjob. I'll repeat that, in case you missed it. HE DOESN'T LIKE BLOWJOBS!!!! I was shocked I just had to ask him why the hell he didnt enjoy them and he replied with it is great at first but he never seems to be able to get off and then went into more detail: It starts out like whoa she's sucking me off, cool, this feels great, but after a few minutes he gets bored, like he is just laying there and she is out of reach and he has nothing to entertain himself with during this time. I was in awe really. I was wondering who in the hell has he let go down on him? Was she really that bad that he was able to think about not being "entertained"? Just from personal experiance I can recall many times where my "parts" were in positions that would allow a guy to entertain himself. Examples: on the bed, beside him on your knees there is easy reach of boobs ass vagina ect. How about him sitting and you on your knees infront of him? makes Boobs within reach... or what ever happened to the holding onto her hair and going at it? Like I said, i was shocked to hear of a guy getting bored during a blow job. I dont think I know of another guy that doesnt enjoy getting head .I guess this is something thatI just assume because I dont go around asking all my guy friends if they like blowjobs or not. All I can speak for is the men that I have been involved with and none have ever said/acted like they didnt enjoy blowjobs. Since I have never taken an offical poll and I sure as hell dont plan on calling any of the guys I know just to ask them about this, I am going to just toss this question out here: If you are a guy, do you like blowjobs or can you live without them? And for the females, ever date a guy that wasn't a fan of blowjobs?

I'd like to give you some advice on how to talk to women: 1) Calling them when you are drunk and barking at them to come over is not usually the best persuasive technique. 2) If a woman says no, maintain your composure. It could be that the woman had a long day and just wasn't feeling it. 3) If a woman says no, maintain your composure. If it is the case that she is rejecting you, yelling and swearing at her probably won't change her mind. 4)Be aware that you may actually come across a strong, independent woman during some of your drunken escapades. Don't be scared, they won't hurt you. They just won't be at your beck and call. If you feel that you need to move on to weaker, more submissive girls, have at it. But don't project your issues onto the stronger woman. She obviously has the confidence and self-esteem that you are lacking, and that is actually a good thing. Perhaps a big dose of maturity pills will help in your case. 5)If you are shorter than most of the girls you are talking to, please don't take your Napolean Complex out on them. It isn't their fault they fully developed during puberty. Go easy on them. This time my advice is free. Next time, it will cost you.;)

Let’s talk about meeting random people on the internet, shall we? I mean sure, you’ve got your standard sick fucks and your children stalking freaks, but every now and then you find something like a hidden gem. Everyone has their own drama that they deal with. We all have pasts and hidden demons and basically shit that has fucked us up, maybe permanently, maybe not, whatever. And we all think that OUR shit is special and different and that nobody has ever been there and oh my GOD how am I ever going to make it one more day because I am so alone. And then you find some totally random person who has not only been through the same thing but they had balls and dealt with it head on and suddenly your world got a little easier to be in. Then you find yourself hoping that they aren’t going to read your email and be all “Man…what a psycho freak. This bitch is emailing me; I KNEW that blogging would be bad because how can something with such a weird ass name be good?” But they don’t. They email you back. And they say… “Hey. Nice to meet you. If you lived closer we would totally hang out.” Finding that internet friend fucking kicks ass.

This is something I feel compelled to write about. Some of you may be offended, but I do not mean it that way. This is something I feel very strongly about, but it's still just my opinion... I do not understand people who cheat on their spouses/ significant others. I say if you are that unhappy in your relationship either fix it, or end it. Don't complicate things even more by bringing in a third person. Tell me how bringing in another person in your relationship is going to make things better, for you or your relationship? Now if you are single but seeing someone who is married/ with someone else, I have some questions for you too. If they will sneak around, lying and cheating on their partner, how the hell can you possibly believe that they wouldn't do it to you too? What kind of relationship is it going to be where it starts out with one or both lying and sneaking around? If it were me, I'd wonder if that person wasn't just using me as a stepping stone... until the next one came along. I'll end this with something I heard someone say once. If you really think about it, it's SO true. Just because it's different, doesn't mean it's better.