well to day sucked ass. i had to go all the way to ft wayne to take my son to his dads. when Dylan figured out we were going there he started begging for us to go home. he was not happy and he cried and stuff on the way there. me and dave loved it lol when we got there he started screaming i dont want my daddy. i hoped when we got in the house he would be better when he saw his daddy. NO. right to his dads face he said i dont want my daddy and wouldnt let Josh take him from me. Josh was hurt by this of course but i said dont be mad at him hes 3.Josh got Dylan playing and i snuck out and started crying right away. Dave dried my tears and told me not to cry. you see every single time Dylan goes to his dads i cry. i dont mean i shed a few tears oh no. this is full on water works. i hate it. But he has to see his daddy.he can not be in the new house while fix it and it has to be fixed so we can live in it and give dylan a better life.
dylan is a mommas boy he has been since day one. for the first year of his life it was just me and him really. i left josh when dylan wasnt 1 yet and for a while josh didnt see dylan. he cared more about this other girl and her kid. so me and dylan are very close. he nevers cares to leave his dad but boy does he hate to leave me. Josh is a good father now and dylan needs his time with him. when he starts school,he wont be abalie to see him as much as he does now and that worries me.for about a month dylan desided on his own that dave was his daddy,he wanted him not Josh. i didnt tell josh that and one night when on the phone with Joshs aunt she asked dill if he wanted to talk to his daddy and dylan said Dave is my Daddy i wanna talk to dave. well dave shit and so did i i hope his aunt didnt tell him
