im done im sick of everytime i try to be nice i get hurt no matter how small the effort i get screwed! i ha
ve very few friends that are true! im tired of being told one thing, and another happening !
i told my last g/f no matter what i'll be there! well she did coke. i drank liquor! and i got screwed! and thats just the way it always turns out 4 me!
with every passing day the nice happy understanding mike that has always been is going away! i am trying to hold on but everytime i reach out for a life line it gets ripped away!
danielle! you keep me afloat! you have been the best friend to me over all! and i love you for that! thank you! i think pretty much this whole rant is bacause i cant talk to you at the moment! i drunk! and hurting! and tired! noone else really seams to care! but you and like 1 or "maybe" 2 and they have known me 4 years
anyhow!..........lol enough i shouldnt even post this because its a drunkin ramble!......lol but i will 4 atleast till i read it again........lol and realize how pathetic it sounds but this is me now so im posting it! fuck you if you dont like it fuck you if you think less of me ! i spend too much time worrying about how others think to care at THIS moment what anyone else thinks! im just letting the pressure out! so thank 4 reading that means you care enough to take the time! and if i said somethin to piss u off then oh-well! too bad! this will be gone anyhow in a few days!
