JJ's blog: "I hate blogging"

WOW! So when you are drunk and your friends approach you with scissors RUN!!!! Yea mixed drinks are not my friend I am a very light drinker and I dont really do it that often. So when I was completely smashed my friend came up to me and said, "Jenn you know you need to do something new with your hair." As true as this statement is, my old hair was way way better then the choppy flop of mess it looks like. So now my hair looks like shit, I feel retarded, and now I dont watn to go to work tomorrow out of fear that the girls will notice. My best friend is going to save me tomorrow night and fix it (girls always have a friend that is a hair stylist!!) So look forward to pics of the aftermath (there will be none taken until the mess has been fixed *cough*brad*cough* so too bad!). Hope yall had a better weekend then I did.

I dont get why they must torture me. Me and my ex-fiancee have been apart for over a year now, and yet he calls me out of no where to tell me that he is thinking of me. The man is engaged again. I dont need to hear that shit it was hard enough breaking up with him. He is the one person that I never said "lets just be friends". When we ended it, it was done, over with, el fineto. So I guess what I am trying to figure out is why he (or guys in general) do this? Why cant they just let it be dead? So if you have any insight please enlighten me.

Yea so I am over at my friends house right and the guys are all wraped up in playing this fucking game that is incredible boring. They have drivin me and Daun to the point that we are in seperate rooms texting and sending IM's to each other. This is just sad. We figured we would both entertain ourselves with myspavce and cherrytap. Well the coke whore is awake so I think I will go talk to him for a tad.

So this past weekend I made a 2 hour drive to Orlando to with a friend to have dinner with one of his old friends that flew in from Tokyo. I couldnt pronounce her name right so she told me to just call her Sugar. She was so sweet and I got to learn a lot about her culture. It just makes me want to go to Japan even more. So after dinner it was another 2 hour trek back to clearwater. I basically live at my friends house from Friday night to monday afternoon. We had a lot of fun hanging out and Saturday night I went to my first drag show, and I dont mean cars. I swear it was the funniest shit ever. These dirty old men were jumping at these "girls" and throwin their $$$$ at them. I swear some of these "girls" could really dance. This one decided to sing and dance and do Somewhere over the rainbow, my god did she blow it out of the water. Not to mention it was funny watching her rolling on the floor to emphasize the last few notes of the song. I am not talking a small "woman" here either. I am talking a strong thick black woman doing the worm and then rolling towards the crowd.I was a bit afraid at first but once I got into the swing of things I just sat back and do what I do best, enjoy myself, drink a few drinks, and observe. The only thing that sucked was that the bar was practically packed wall to wall with guys, and I mean hot guys, but unfortunately I dont have the right equipment to interest them. Oh well. Anyway so Monday night Tina (Justin) another friend of a friends came in from SC. This boy is beautiful but again not interested with what I have to offer lol. Yea ok so my best friends are gay, i will be the first to admit it I am a full fledge Fag Hag and Im very proud of that title. SO anyway Tina's arival party was so much fun that I cant go into detail, mostly because I dont remember most of it. Tina will be here all week so I cant wait to party again. Thursday is Kareoke, Friday is the drag show at Chambers (tampa bar for you gay FL kids), Saturday is GASPARILLA (tampa's version of mardis gras, and then sunday is my day of rest. So on my day of rest this week I hung out with my Dad havent seen him in a couple of months so we had lunch and saw The Messangers (not that impressed). So I had a super interesting weekend lots of drinking, and alot of things to remain unnamed, all in all it was a great weekend!

In the begining I was new to it all. I had no idea what I was getting myself into and actually the whole idea was pretty silly to me. Then I started hanging out with them more and more and I realized why they are called a family. They are not your typical family, they dont live together, hell most dont even live in the same state, but that never seemed to matter. They loved each other like brothers and sisters, I knew about their kids, boyfriends, girlfriends, husbands, and wives. They knew more about me then my realy family knew about me. They were my internet family. A group of friends that were always here for each other no matter what happened. Well something happened that we forgot to take into consideration. Time happened. We have real lives, real families, real jobs. We cant spend our days on the computer and stay up all night talking to each other. In the begining all you think about is each other you are so excited and all you want to do is be there to talk to them, afraid you might miss out in something, all while real life is happening all around us and we are letting it pass us by so we can live in a fantasy world. So when do we stop the fantasy and get back to reality? What happens to all the people that you made real connections with, not because of wealth, fame, or looks,but because of who you were(were saying you were)as a person? Do they disappear when the computer turns off? Do you stop worrying about someone? Do you stop loving them? Can you love someone you have never met? Its hard to forget and move on but to some extent we have to. So to those of you that know what I am talking about, I havent forgotten you, I dont think I ever could you all have made your stamp on my heart and helped me become the person I am today. I love you all and in this time of family I wish you the warmest of season greatings. ~Sunflower~ ~Karma~ ~Leeloo~ Jenn.

Ok so if I say I hate him and I want to quit the station he will think it is because he hooked up with someone else. I tell him that I have a new bf and he will think I am lying because he has a new gf. I am thinking I am screwed either way. He drives me nuts and I think he does it on purpose, seriously. (anyone who knows me knows who I am talking about, if you dont then apparently you dont know me!) So everyone at work is pissy and sick because its like we are just sharing each others germs. I am not having fun what so ever. I did how ever entertain myself this weekend, my new guy, Ramez (fat mexican at halloween party) bought me 2 turltes as a house warming present, seeing as how I cant have pets they are great. The are so cute I named them Micho and Leo. I was going to originally name them after my 2 best friends but then I was like yeaaaa, NO! All in all it was a great weekend I spent it on the beach with Rambo (thats his nickname dumb I know I said that too) and then stayed at Rhetts house and watched movies and played video games with the boys. I really didnt want to come home today and work but I guess some one said I had to in order to pay my bills so I was all ok fine. So I am sick, tired, achey, and ready for bed so what better time then now to go pass the fuck out.

ok so I hate blogging, I never know what to say, who to say it to, and why I have some urge to say anything any way still kind of boggles my mind. So I guess the big thing is who the hell actualy reads other peoples blogs? I dont. The only blogs I have ever been caught reading was my ex boyfriend's blog because he was writing about me. Call me selfish but it is true. Once he got over me his life officially became boring and it showed in his blogs. Ok so back to the topic at hand, who reads this. If you read this leave a comment because I want to know exactly is so bored that they want to actually sit down and read what I have to say. Next what to say. I never know what to say in any situation. I am an impromtue kinda person, oh yeah did I mention creative spelling see above sentance if you need clarification(it is 2 am cut me some slack). I say ok and so a lot, if you have a problem with this stop at the first word of this blog and never look back. Thirdly whats with the urge to blog. I claim to hate blogging yet here I am doing the thing I hate. Irony I know. I think it is the fact that I have this world domination complex and I want everyone to know or it could be my insomnia that is kicking in. Either way here I am. Well so first blogs are all about introductions, at least that is my firm belief. I am Jenn, a raving lunatic, who is madly in love with her boyfriend Josh, and wishes more then anything that she was stoned off her ass laying in his arms right now. I am a Pharmacy Tech (there is that strange sense of irony again) I work all day and now I just found out I am a co owner of a lovely little radio station that my best friend Elly moo and my lovely boyfriend black mamba twinkie started so I will be djing from 10am-1pm EST. If for some strange reason you want to listen to my horrible rock, pop, and rap music mixed with me mumbling a little something here and there every once in awhile come to the darkside lounge. I kind of destest Lost Cherry the only reason I am on this damn thing is because I have grown tired of myspace and yahoo 360 and most of my friends have come over to this so now I am forced to be a sheep and follow along and keep up with all this damn shit. Well I am officially so bored I am tired. If you read all this you are now 2% dumber then you were 10 minutes go, CONGRATULATIONS!