Today i dont know how i should feel. I have one of those families, on my dad's side especially that is not close...at all. We see each other for sicknesses and funerals. There are the few family members that i keep in contact with (Meli ) and i am thankfull for them being in my life. The rest i either don't know because of distance, it doesnt help i didnt see any of them for like 12 years because of divorce.... and then the others well yea they are those family members lol the ones your like hmmm do i claim them?? lol Just kidding i love my family even the dysfunctional ones lol
I have such a feeling of love and thanks for all of my family, growing up not having them has always made me want to be closer, and i have tried but with distance it can be hard. Well ok time to get to my point lol I found out today that my Aunt passed away last wednesday. I hadn't checked my e-mail until today on that account and was like whoaaaaaaaaaa. Besides the fact there was no phone call, i was floored for a minute. My aunt Lupe, even though i didnt know her well, i have such warm loving feelings just when i think of her. When i think of her i rememebr a beautiful loving wonderful person, almost like an angel. I know she made an engraving with her love into my heart as a little kid. She was also my Godmother. I want to cry, but then im like do i have the right i didnt know her that well and i feel guilty. I have been meaning to get in touch with her. And now i can't....i waited too long. It baffles me how you can feel so much love for someone that you barely talked to. And how now i feel a little empty space because i dont have the chance to even get to talk or see my godmother again....
Im sure I will figure it out soon enough.....
