Why do you think that all the things should just go the way you want them to. Whenever you want them to. You think you can just go around doing what you want whenever you want. And then think you can just walk in and I will just fall all over you like that.. Why? What do you really think I am.. Do you realize I am a person. I have feelings too. I am not just here for you to take whenever you want.. Or to be there when you find the time..
I guess I asked for it all.. Let myself be used that way.. I just can’t take it anymore.. I just can’t do this anymore.. It is tearing me up inside to much.. I will not put myself through this anymore.. Not for you, not for anyone.. I am not going to deal with this pain anymore.. It hurts to much to do it over and over again..
I am here for a reason and not just what you want me to be.. I am a person with a heart, a soul and feelings too. You just do not seem to see that for some reason. I believed all that you had said to me.. I guess I just wanted to believe it was all true. You just said all the right things at all the right times, to make me feel special.. But it seems that you just said things to get all you wanted but they were only words with no meaning behind them..
Sitting here hurting and wanting to cry.. But not letting myself because I promised myself I wouldn’t let anyone ever do this to me again. Damn, but I let you in my heart and I really let myself believe you.. For what, so I can be hurt again like all the other times.. Why, why do I keep doing this to myself..
