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It is always nice to think that you have all of the time in the world. Time to meet the person you want to share your life with, grow old with, but sometimes reality has a way of stealing all of that from you. I know that I took a break from here and it was not something I wanted to do but I do feel that I can let my friends know now that is going on. I have been undergoing medical issues for over a year and a half here in Arizona with multiple tests, multiple specialists. You begin to feel like the neverending pin cushion but finally one day they come up with an answer. You hope for the best prepare for the worst and when the words come out of their mouths you try to control yourself. I did find my diagnosis its not the greatest and ultimately will take me away from everyone that I love and care about. According to my cancer doctor I have Myeloid Myplasia, eventually will turn into Leukemia and then go from there but then came the hidden diagnosis the one I was expecting. I have Epstein Barr Disease not simply the virus that goes away. I have the energy to stay awake maybe 5 hours a day, constant body aches, food likes impossible and well you get the picture. When I asked the simple question how long I got maybe 6 months maybe 2 years who knows. How do you prepare for a "who knows". I surely don't have the answer. I do want to thank one person in particular that sat and chatted with me to try and make me feel better before some of my tests and that is Ranger. He is a wonderful man who like everyone else is figuring out the world, to you I give a great big thank you and a hug it was comforting to be able to let out frustration and not be judged for it. I don't want sympathy not the reason for writing this but I have been asked by quite a few as to what is going on so there it is. I hope you all had a great Holiday Season and take it day to day that is what I am having to learn....Who knew all of this at only 34.
