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Just a bit of an update from my last blog. So far there is no medications that are helping with any of the symptoms and this week I get to go to a lovely neurologist to find out why I fall and black out. More and more tests yay can't wait but who knows maybe something will finally come out of it all. I just wanted to say a big thank you to my friends that have helped me out either by just talking or simply letting me know that they are there I can't tell you how much I appreciate it......much love
Jen
It is always nice to think that you have all of the time in the world. Time to meet the person you want to share your life with, grow old with, but sometimes reality has a way of stealing all of that from you. I know that I took a break from here and it was not something I wanted to do but I do feel that I can let my friends know now that is going on. I have been undergoing medical issues for over a year and a half here in Arizona with multiple tests, multiple specialists. You begin to feel like the neverending pin cushion but finally one day they come up with an answer. You hope for the best prepare for the worst and when the words come out of their mouths you try to control yourself. I did find my diagnosis its not the greatest and ultimately will take me away from everyone that I love and care about. According to my cancer doctor I have Myeloid Myplasia, eventually will turn into Leukemia and then go from there but then came the hidden diagnosis the one I was expecting. I have Epstein Barr Disease not simply the virus that goes away. I have the energy to stay awake maybe 5 hours a day, constant body aches, food likes impossible and well you get the picture. When I asked the simple question how long I got maybe 6 months maybe 2 years who knows. How do you prepare for a "who knows". I surely don't have the answer. I do want to thank one person in particular that sat and chatted with me to try and make me feel better before some of my tests and that is Ranger. He is a wonderful man who like everyone else is figuring out the world, to you I give a great big thank you and a hug it was comforting to be able to let out frustration and not be judged for it. I don't want sympathy not the reason for writing this but I have been asked by quite a few as to what is going on so there it is. I hope you all had a great Holiday Season and take it day to day that is what I am having to learn....Who knew all of this at only 34.
As always Fu never ceases to amaze me. Some of us are here to see what we can get out of other people, yes you have the beggers always needing fubux for something, the bling whores who just think it makes them popular but then you have the people that simply play the game, never beg for anything and pretty much get a tickle out of watching the green names beg to be kept green. I must say though my favorite subject as of late is the shoutbox whiners. Get in someones shoutbox and whine about how they don't know your life and they don't know you, well if the shoe fits then I suggest you put it on and stfu. They sic their lil fu friends on you then carry it over to facebook, yahoo, yearbook wherever their pathetic little lives carry them and then omg you are supposed to be scared bc someone got butthurt for the truth being told. Maybe they used to be a friend, maybe you used to date them hell maybe you even screwed them once or twice the point is don't make yourself look like an ass or force anyone to see your sad pathetic statuses just because you are a little sad pathetic person. Most people on Fu are here for the same reason as I am, level, make friends maybe hit a lounge or two and laugh at some mumms. But as always there always has to be a little sissy party pooper that wants to try and make their pathetic little point known. I have my friends here, I have the people I talk to and the people that I would hope would fall off a cliff pretty much know who they are. Keep the crap to yourself, get a life maybe shutting down the computer and turning off your phone might be the best thing that you could do but keep it off my page I see enough of it everywhere else to get a chuckle if I need one. To my Fu fam I love you guys to death, my friends you know who you are and I trust you with everything and to anyone else you'll get what you want out of this blog and if the shoe fits then maybe its time to change them.
Much love
Jen
Sometimes people don't realize the true meaning of things until they are lost to them. A relationship that went south and never given a second chance could be the relationship that would have lasted. Friends that take each other for granted and never really listen to one another losing touch and not speaking. You never know what will happen tomorrow or what might walk into your life tomorrow so never take for granted the things that you have right in front of you.
