I have know my ex for a total of 15 yrs. he is a trucker and I had fallen back into love with him. When he is home he stays with me and the kids and I wont lie its nice having him here, like the good old days.. but today i found out he would be 3 hrs away and i asked him if the kids and i could come see him.. at first he was fine then bam he wasnt. well long story short we fought and he said the "main reason I like being out on the road is bc i can forget about u" and let me tell ya that was the most hurtful thing he has ever said to me and he has says some hurtful things.. so I deleted me fb ( the cause of most of the drama) and his number .. i know i cant keep him from the kids but he will no longer stay here when he is n town. I could never hurt him the way he hurt me... i feel so lost and empty inside. I do so much for him and all he wants to do is forget me? How do i deal?