I just felt I wanted to talk a little about the holidays. As they approach, beacause this will be my frst holday season alone in 30 years, I have found that I am a bit melancholy. Sure, I feel the warmth of friendship and the spirit of giving and all, but it seems different, almst as if I am watching things as a third person. Today, I thought..maybe if I get a tree in the apartment it will give me a lift. But that didn't work. No, I'm not feeling sorry for myself, that isn't it..I'm not e3xactly sure what it is --I suppose it's something of a feeling of emptiness because I have noone here to celebrate with. I know there are thousands of people having their own "first" holiday without--and I really feel selfish in a way--I mean, think about all the serviemena dnwomen in Iraq and their families here who will be without each other--and then tell me that anyone has the right to be more pensive about the holidays than they do--but I still have that gnawing emptiness. What I think I am going to do-which I have done before and found tremendously satisfying, is to buy soem gifts and take them to the homeless shelter and help to make their holiday one of hope. Thinking of doing that makes me feel better. Won't you all think about doing something for the ones who need your love the most and you don't even know who they are? The season isn't about atll the trappings--it is really about the spirit of giving from ones heart to let others know they matter.
Happy Holidays to all!! Whatever your beliefs!!!
Love and hapiness to all who read this
