My biggest lie
was not being truthful
to the one I love .....
I lied about who I was
but more so to me than anyone
I hide behind a mask
that wasnt even mine .....
The worst part of it all
is I hurt someone who means
a great deal to me in many ways .....
He cant hate me anymore than
I hate myself because its not
who I am ....
My feelings were true
all the talks werent lies
Ive been beatin
Ive been raped
but Id take any form
of punishment than this ....
I thought I have felt the worse
but GOD I was wrong
this is killing me .....
All my life I have waited for
someone truly like him
the heart of someone who
might actually care
The heart of someone who
could love me
and not tear me down
the kind of person who
could bring me what I needed most
LOVE .....
Some know and have forgivin me
and in them I found more than
I thought possible ....
GOd please help me .....
Im begging for his forgiveness
through my tears for they seem
to be all I truly have left .....
He is so much more than I
ever thought possible
and I wish with I could possibly
that he could just know
how sorry I am
I miss him so much ....
I miss the sound of his voice
it echos though my heart
like a dagger .....
Im so sorry for the lie I told
I just didnt think I was worth
very much inside til you ....
So tonight I say one last thing
"To say we touch
to say I love you
to say you taught me
to say things new
none of these is enough
my love .....
for your world with all
its lights and hope
couldnt prepare me for this
Sorrow this saying Goodbye ....
please forgive me
look inside to see
what it could be ....
I love you ......
