White Buffalo's blog: "random stuff"

I ave been wondering how long and what i would take to start healing from the loss of my son.....I have the feeling i am on the way to starting on  the journey......turns out all i needed was a good bottle of whiskey some beer and to get mad enough to try and break my arm with my shed....the problem i still have is anger management and the total lack of a reason or desire to love anything.....i include my rl friends and family in this...i feel like i have been shut out left in the cold and with indifference but oh well.....gonna drown in a bottle again and try not to go postal or hurt myself smacking things so if i dont answer right away just figure i either am busy breaking something or i went to sleep!!!!