Happy but Torn
Is it bad if I am torn between "bumfuck" and "nowhere" now? If he asked, I'd stay, but I cant... and I know he wouldnt ask... but I havent felt this happy in a long time ( besides how the 40 mountain dews made me feel last night ). I love him, he knows it, and he knows I'd do anything for him. I am just so torn.. before today, I've been packing and getting ready and busting my ass... and now, I'm sitting here in my room looking around, and I see his hat, and I can still smell him, still feel him holding on, and I want to cry.. I'll leave regardless, just like he did months ago, but now I have a reason to come home... if he's still here, if not I'm going to Cali. lol
and now, besides looking forward to leaving, I'm looking forward to australia next summer with him...... so any donations?? lol
god, i need to learn not to fall in love anymore.
