Sleepless nights
Stale cigarettes
Racing thoughts
What am I to do now?
The pills the doctor prescribed arent working...
"Will make you fall asleep."
Ha! What a laugh
It's failing me
My sanity is going
I'm starting to fall
The littlest things piss me off
No control, no emotions
Just anger
Icy glares, snide remarks
Just want to get away
730 am, cold coffee
So confused, so frustrated
I'm leaving soon
Maybe it'll be better there
Need caffeine
sleep
pills
nicotine
love
Anything to make me feel better.
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No sleep
again
for the 4th night
I dont know what I'm doing
I need him
just to tell me
everything will be ok
If he can make it,
why cant I?
But his pills work
mine seem to hate me
Oh, how lucky he is.
I can barely comphrend
what my mother is saying
it's turning into a buzzing far away sound
the tv is on
but I cant focus on it.
I cant focus on anything
why?
what am I doing wrong?
all I want is sleep.
something to make me feel happy and content
I cant feel.
its all numb now.
shes rambling on about how shes been awake since 430
oh poor mother, no sleep.
And you wonder why Im "cranky"
she asks whats wrong.
"Nothing. I'm fine."
I need something, alot of things.
but nothing she can give me
nothing works.
Just tell me, I'll be ok.
but I wont.
Just let everything be ok.
