Beautiful Angel SupportTheTroops's blog: "gone"

the tears cause pain as they fall from my eyes i don't know if anything will ever be right she was not my grandmother.. but in my heart she was she was not related but she was she was always there for me... helping me along the way loving me no matter what i had to face she was the greatest woman that i ever had the chance to meet i remember the day i left... she gave me a kiss on the cheek told me to come see her whenever i was in town she told me i was like a granddaughter and that she loved me now i will never get to see her again.. how do i live with the emptiness from a grandmother that i miss how do i go on with my life without her in it...

i hurt so much right now i don't think the pain will ever reside she is gone yet i am here that don't seem right she should be in bed sleeping tonight she should be smiling and laughing like she use to but all is quiet... no sound is heard... she is gone...something she didn't deserve she was loved by many.. she gave up so i hear her life was nothing to her without the light there she had nothing to gain...but everything to lose yet she gave up on life she had us all... yet she gave up..... why did she give up... she had so many people that loved her so many people that cared so many people that didn't want her to go.... yet she left this world she just silently gave it all up

the tears wont stop... they wont go away.. she is gone... she left and went away.. never to come back.. i wont get to see her ever again... she is gone for good. no crying will bring her back.. but the tears wont stop... i want the tears to stop i want the pain to go away no i need the pain to go away i miss her....

a woman that was like my grandmother passed away the other day..i didn't know i hurt so much...she cant be gone...she cant be i want her back here ....i want to hug her again....i want her to tell me all is ok that life will get better i want to hear the stories about her childhood... i want her here to where i feel safe again i just don't want her gone i want her here....why did she have to die? i know its a part of life.....but why her.....i would have gladly taken her place if it meant she wouldn't die .....i want her here!!! .......i need her here!! why.....why did she go....