everything gets so romanticized
with distance with
time. . .
there's the old saying about fonder hearts
but i think it's more an issue of
forgetting.
a girl gets glossed over.
like greasing the lens--
she appears
angelic almost.
it's not a sham so much as
marketing maybe
or maybe not marketing it's
the desire
to think that so far at least
your life has meant something.
it's the desire to think that everything
has been something and
it's been something
beautiful.
so you start
blurring the edges and
dimming the lights
and before too long,
with the fog of time and so many years
all the nights alone and the broken hearts
all the deaths and all the rejections
get glossed over and you remember them
just a little different.
just a little better.
