Grr. Frustrated with everything lately. Broke up with Joe recently. Have a very strong feeling he was not honest with me while we were together. Work is slow, yet again. Got to love vineyard work in the winter. Fuck. Just been thinking a lot lately with all this time i have on my hands. I just get so frustrated with where my life has gone so far. It really sucks and then I get angry with myself for not making better choices. Sometimes I just want to scream til my throat is raw. It has been over 5 years since my Mom passed and I think about her everyday. I just wish I could get some of these thoughts out of my head. Like Dumbledore in Harry Potter with the Pensieve. Sometimes I just wish I could get away.....over and out for now.
